REALISATION
Tuesday, November 30, 2010 at 1:45 AM
“Dear pillow, sorry for all the tears.”
Have you ever had those times when you just feel angry so strong and when the other party apologized for what one has done, you said “yeah it’s alright” but as soon as you gave out the forgiveness, you regret saying those words?
I just had one. And wow the pain. Stabbed, so strong it just doesn’t bleed anymore, it’s running out of blood. The scar. Too deep it just can’t be cured no matter how many antidotes or medicines they say it may be able to.
Seperti kacang lupa akan kulitnya. A nut that forgets its shell. Those are the perfect words I really have been meaning to say to you. When you were having pathetic life, I picked you up from the ground and told you to be strong. I WAS there for you. And when you have actually become bright like a star, where are you? You just simply DITCHED me.
People, when you actually start loving someone, do you realize that you would do whatever it takes to make him or her feel happy? But what you guys just don’t grasp is that sometimes you’ve done so much, just too much, they start being in their “very-comfortable zone”. In this “zone”, you don’t know the real world anymore. You would not even realize that somehow in some ways, they start using you.
As soon as I tested everything out, I started to figure out how much he has been using me. Like a fool, I keep doing what he wants and keep telling myself “since he is the one I love the most, why shouldn’t I? Why can’t I?“
Not to mention how many times he doesn’t thank. I mean, seriously, is saying “thank you” a difficult thing to do? If it does, please let me know. Not that I really want anything, but some people just like being appreciated for what they have done for you.
I have lost respect on you, just so you know.
You don’t break the hearts of people you love. In every way possible, they are the most important ones in your life. They are those that make life worth living for. They are the ones that would hold on to you when things go wrong in your life. Even if your life were perfect, there would be the times when you would just need them. That’s why it is important to not destroy people’s feelings.
When are you going to stop being absurd, end treating me that way, and start to being mature? Because next time you point a finger, I’ll point you to the mirror.
Stop showing off by letting the world knows how you are madly in love with someone else. Just keep it to yourself; it would lessen the ones who are madly in love with you. Just please.
Labels: immature, losing respect
